Friday, June 12, 2009 at 11:41PM 
I'm starting to think that the four-ish years I wrote reality television has now affected my own writing.
Okay, I tried to justify the above statement in my head as it is easy to blame everything bad in the world on reality television (although I think I can speak for everyone when I say that Janice Dickinson--train wreck or not--is enthralling), but really, I wrote more when I was working on the show than when I was unemployed and my waking hours revolved around running and that firecracker Judge Judy's schedule.
From what I can tell-what my well researched data is showing me-is that I haven't written regularly since Russ and I decided to quit Los Angeles and find out what we really wanted to do for the rest of our lives in another part of the country. No pressure.
Russ may have quit his job, but I kept mine knowing the end would be near if I moved 900 miles away from it. It's like having a boyfriend in Canada during college and then moving away from him. You know you're just saying what sounds good so you don't sound like an asshole or a quitter. But really there is no future. He puts "u"s after his "o"s and drinks Molsen.
So here I am, broken up with my Canadian boyfriend of a career and until recently at a standstill job wise and with only three months until forty, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. I think I'm doing it.
Life hurts my brain.
Reader Comments (4)
What?! I really thought you were 27 or something.
Is it some sort of deal with the Devil? I'd like to know. Please share with the rest of the world.
It was a lucky break that the Canadian boyfriend didn't come along with you. Because when that happens you have to stay out with him because he's done so much to be with you.
Hope the new job works out well. I'm still not too clear what it is apart from encasing dummies in mud up to their thighs. But that looks heaps more fun than reality tv.
Am 42.
I don't know either. I just try to have fun and be kind. Do we have to have a "purpose" to be complete? I'm still wondering that daily.
that's the question, isn't it?
I think you are doing whatever it is that you need to do at this moment. Maybe you could join a writing group? I think that serves as an inspiration to keep motivated when you have like minded people engaged in the same activity.
Let me know when you figure it out and pass along the secret to me:)
Jess